Hey Tribe, so I'm back to finish the story of how things changed faster than I could spell my name. As I spoke about in the first post I went in the hospital with swollen feet and left with CANCER. I know it all sounds devastating and trust me it was (if I'm honest still is). I won't drag you through the entire story just know I in one day had 2 procedures that ended with 2 days on a ventilator, chest tubes and 6 days in the ICU. During this time I became know around the hospital as the girl in the yellow hat recovering better than anyone could have imagined.
Me and my yellow flea market find hat were a team during this entire ordeal. It was late February just 3 days after my birthday when I showed up in the ER in a yellow stocking hat with a glitter flower on it looking for help with swelling that I just couldn't shake. My yellow hat became my coat of armor. I wore my hat the entire time I was in the hospital during every procedure and treatment. I never took it off. So, what you wore the hat everyday and?? I know you may be thinking what is her point of telling us this story and what does it have to do with cancer. EVERYTHING!
When you go through life changing situations find something that brings you comfort. My yellow hat from that day became my comfort. I felt that as long as I had my hat I could conquer anything that I had to face even cancer. Cancer has taken so many things away from my control that in order for me to mentally cope with all the life changes I had to have something that was just my choice. Once I became a breast cancer patient my life became directed by oncologist and chemo side effects. My hat gave me power to fight on. My yellow hat remains to be my power source. I have not completed one chemo treatment without (ask my husband about the day I forgot it). I truly feel that when I was in the hospital fighting for my life that my yellow hat was a bright spot for my nursing staff and myself. My nursing staff never let me leave the room without it.It how everyone in the hospital recognized me and congratulated me on my progress. It was like they knew it's power and how much I needed it. So as you battle it out with cancer or whatever is ailing you I pray that you find your yellow hat. We got this!
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